Life right now is crazy. Pure craziness. The to-do lists are longer than ever, the schedule is packed tight, and the days don’t feel long enough to get it all done. This is the month that David and I, along with our two precious children, will depart for the country of Papua New Guinea. Many years of preparation have gone into making this a reality, and it boggles my mind that the real work hasn’t even begun yet.
I was lying in bed unable to sleep as I kept running through the lists of things to do. My mind wandered back to the first few years of our marriage. The first year of marriage was hard for David and I; living together was a piece of cake but life was crazy. At that time, David and I had five jobs between the two of us while each attending school full time. Our cars broke down constantly, our five jobs barely paid Southern California rent, and my health hit an all-time low when we experienced our first miscarriage coupled with chemotherapy treatments (losing your hair the first year of marriage is a bit of a downer). With all that to say, Life.Was.Crazy. As crazy as crazy gets. But what’s even crazier is that I lie in bed and think, “Man, those were the good days!” Isn’t that funny how we do that? How in the midst of pure insanity, the toughest trials, and complete exhaustion, you can still have such cherished memories?
Right now certain aspects of what we are doing are hard. Not having my own home and feeling displaced at times is difficult; trying to plan for things that would be helpful to have in PNG is overwhelming; and obviously preparing to leave family and friends is painful. This is a hard time, no doubt about it.
In the midst of feeling overtaken by this difficult time of final preparation, I remembered one of my all-time favorite Office quotes from Andy on the last episode when he says, “I wish there was a way to know you were in the good ol’ days before you left them.” As crazy as this time in life is, I am confident that I will look back on this time and say, “Wow, those were the good ol’ days.”
This is where everything that we believe matters. This is when God’s word is truth to our souls and a weapon to all sorts of lies that come our way. This is when we say, “Yes Jesus, you are better than anything else this life has to offer, and Yes Jesus you are worth everything.” Sometimes I have to shake myself and say, “Girl, don’t worry about the best bug repellent, don’t let Satan scare you with the myriads of what if’s! Trust the Lord! Pray for the Lost! Be in God’s word! Love your husband! Love your children! This is war! FEAR NOT, GOD IS WITH YOU AND HE WILL BE WITH US EVEN TO THE END OF THE AGE!”
If you think of it, please pray for us. Pray that we wouldn’t be consumed by the lists but that our minds would be consumed by Christ!